Adulting is HARD.

Lets be honest. LIFE is NOT easy. LOTS of choices to be made, and when you are a parent the choices you make no longer just effect you-they effect your children so life gets even harder. 

I spend A GOOD amount a time a week self reflecting on how far I've come and where I want to go--we go through moments in our lives of "what IF" . I tell ya, I'm SO thankful that Advocare has come into my life. I think it has helped me grow as a person, a leader, financially and health wise.

• Ill take you back to my early 20s. I was a lost person, mentally. I didn't know where I belonged in life. I knew a few things-- I LOVED people, I LOVED helping people, I LOVED photography, but in those early years in our lives we are told "GO TO COLLEGE , GET A DEGREE, get a JOB and thats it" but I always thought of myself as 'DIFFERENT' I never wanted to just go behind a desk and work. I get BORED very easily and like to different things. Teaching, Psychology, Nursing & Tornado Chaser ( LOLOLOL OK we can all stop laughing now, it sounded cool for like 1 DAY LOL ) were ALL on my list, but nothing filled that HOLE. That hole of WANT more, I didn't belong in that world, that world of the same schedule week to week. 

• By the time I hit about 25 Jeff & I moved in together and I than said to myself that Photography was going to become a career and it would help me stay home and raise my future kiddos, which was something Jeff & I always talked about. Being both of us were raised by single parents we want to be able to give our kids more. Not more as in a sense of "things" but more as in being able to coach games, be the class parent, etc--things our parents couldn't because they needed to make sure we had a roof over our heads. 

• In 2013 LIFE changed for me-- Most know this, but I don't always talk about it publicly. I am not a 'secret person' and I know SO many others that deal with these issues daily. So i thought it was time for me to come out & talk more about it. In the spring of 2013- I had a miscarriage ( it was very very early on ) but I think in ways it still effected me, but for 4 weeks I was carrying a piece of Jeff & I.  I know that it just wasn't our time and our time will come again <3 A few months later I stopped talking to my Mother. That is a long and complicated story but sometimes people are just NOT meant to be in peoples lives no matter who they are. In that time my health took a BAD turn, I had weighed my heaviest, I was pre diabetic, high cholesterol, bad foot/neck/leg pain, TERRIBLE acid reflux, my colitis was terrible, anxiety attacks almost daily. I was a mess and I KNEW I needed something to CHANGE quickly.  January 2014 it was time for a NEW me. 

So here we are May 2016, I love my life. I truly do. Yes it has its ups and downs ( like any life ) but I know that nothing is temporary and that things will pass. I am blessed with an amazing supportive boyfriend, family, friends and NEW amazing friends that have all helped me through everything.  I am doing exactly what I was put on this earth to do! I get to help people daily! And capture moments that people will cherish forever. 

Writing has always been an out for me and If i can inspire, help ONE person at a time than Ive done what I wanted to do. No life is perfect, its all about HOW we overcome situations and things that happen to us. We must NEVER give up, never give up on ourselves, our lives, and we MUST keep fighting. Find what you love to do and DO IT , DO IT EVERY day! 

Here I am. JUST Who I am. Healthy, Happy, Photographer, helping people ONE person at a time and thats just it. Take me or leave me but this is who I am <3